Thought this might be interesting for all of us? I've been wrong before though. Also, im not a good writer but did graduate college so please excuse my lack of writing skills. Did a little accounting this evening. I am 4-3 for the year. BUT, from January thru July I was up 26,700. After last trip in August where I lost 18,500 im obviously up 8,265 for the year. Won 39,265 and lost 31,000. The last 3 trips I have gone 1-2 winning 15k and losing 26k. The 15k win I pulled out of my ass at the last minute on one baccarat shoe. I was down 15k going into that shoe. This is why I have been playing scared. I feel it changing. Especially after a 4 year really nice run. This time the last 4+ years I was up BIG. Next trip is with broncofn and others from VMB. No childhood friends from home. Could be dangerous but I will maintain the discipline and play conservatively. The partying, not so much! Hopefully me or broncofn win the Baccarat tournament at Aria this coming trip! Bottom line im up for the year and blessed. But this feeling of playing scared kills me. I obviously wont lose my 4+ year winnings by the end of this year (Especially with 10s of 1000s in comps which I really don't count) but for me it is about maybe having a losing year. I DONT WANT ONE! You see im soooo competitive and it isn't about the hard earned cash we all play with and are ready to lose in Las Vegas. For me It is about winning. Coming out on top. Beating the damn house. It is a game I play with myself. That's all. Can any of you relate? Again, please don't take the above the wrong way. I have been very lucky to say the least and I appreciate everything I have. Most of all my health and my Childs health. If I were 0-7 for the year I would still be posting this thread. Every year during this time as there are still a few months left I reflect on the year, life and its adventures which includes Lost Wages. The numbers are all relative. Where are you as far as your Vegas adventures in regards to gaming? What is your record for the year? Up? Down? If you want to say, how much $$$ either way? It isn't like the world knows who you are. Its just a screen name after all.. Im sure 80% of us or more are down for the year but hope not! Thank you for sharing any info you would like.